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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 06:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I will be 64.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Would this be the day?

What would have happened if Shin was a good movie instead of a bad one?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Do you anal play alone?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot live in the past .

I have no regrets .

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We all went to grammer schools

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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He knew the spot.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was 9 years of age.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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I was scared of men, in general

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She married twice! .

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

It was going to be , some day.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But it wasn’t much.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

My life is so biszare .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She was in good health!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im still living with it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was very sick at this time too.

I said to her

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She found it foreign!.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

What did i know ?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I think the readers, may guess!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Comes on , in middle age.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I waited trembling.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I write beautiful poetry .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Ive learnt so much.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Was to survive, this bastard.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He resisted the act ,that day.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But ive been too sick for many years..

She loved him until the end.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

When she asked me how she looked .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But, we were locked up after school.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My family never makes their pension either.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And i lived it daily.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We were not on the streets..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So whats the point in blame.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Put me off passion for life!!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Where the ultimate outsiders.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

This is soul school!.

So, i spoilt her more .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I never cut or harmed myself..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

All the time i was locked up.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I don,t even have a pension.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was seconnd youngest,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Who then, do I blame.?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She wouldn,t have been !